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Met up with afew secondary school friends last night, quek, siew, siling, wenrou and myself...

It was kind of weird meetup. Hahaa siling was my first girlfriend, while this wenrou was someone i liked in the secondary school days... hahaa

When being asked what is my goals in my life, few years back, i could answer you straight away...

things changed, and i dislike the fact that i got to work towards something which i needed to plan...

I just wish that life is just easy go lucky. Reason being, the more things you plan in advance, the more pain you will get if you can't attain or achieve that something. I don't wish to be in that state anymore. One time is very good enough for me.

Then we chatted and talked about other things as well...

I'm sad over the week; most probably due to the fact that we have realized something about someone who used to be very close to us. I just couldn't believe that, a friend of mine told me something which i will keep reminding myself. Who am i to judge or control people's life? If that someone wants to be like this, what else or who am i to change that?

Ok maybe because i've been through many ups and downs in my life, i guess over the many years we have known each other, i guess that's about it...

"The actions were clear;

Never be the same
Executed without further thoughts;
No issue at hand

What seems like happiness;
Might be lies disguised
Feels like new adventure;
Ultimately leading nowhere ahead

Wounds you try healing;
Damages done beyond repair
Words can never conceal;
True colors I saw

WAKE UP !!!!!!!!!!

Years of mutual bonding
Days of new fonding

Speechless...
Blankness..."

ssian

What is happiness ?

I have always been wondering what happiness is, what truely defines the meaning of happiness ?
I used to think that happiness is when you are with someone you love and in return, she loves you back as much as you love that person... it isn't the case.
I used to think that happiness is when you see the smile on her face, you feel at ease and hug her so sweetly, embrace her warmth to your body... it isn't the case.
I used to think that happiness is when you are having a simple and enjoyable meal with the one you love, eating, drinking and looking at her... it isn't the case.
I used to think that happiness is when you see her happy, which in return you felt happy that she was happy and we were happy... it isn't the case.

Till this day, i have yet to know what true happiness is...

It's so much easier to know what is sadness, emo and anger...
What is happiness ?



"
The very moment you held my hands,
i could see our futures at hand.

The very moment you took out the ring,
i could hear my inner bells tinkling.

The very moment you spoke the words,
i could taste the sweetness of our world.

The very moment you hugged me so tight,
i could feel our lives excite.
"

"
Why ?
Why do you walk away now ?

Why ?
Why is this happening ?

Why ?
Why do i have so many Why(s) ?

Why ?
Why can't we give it a one last final try ?


Decision Made
Words Spoken

Angers Rising
Hatred Building

Feelings Fading
Love's Dying

Feeling frustrating
Feeling lost
"