Have not been feeling well this week... so actually went to bed around 8~9pm instead of usual 2~3am... Last night was terrible... I wokeup in the middle of the night, 3am because of one dream... Can you imagine someone shedding tears while dreaming... hahaha... It's the second time i dreamt of her again... It's the same things she said to me... It felt so real, really and i'm not kidding... Although i knew it was a dream, i still persisted on what was going to happen... I don't know, when you loved someone, you want to spend every moment to look after her... I wanted to know what happen... The reasons were still the same, she cried, i cried, it's always repeating itself... I wokeup, the feeling i had wasn't kind of sad, yeah i shed a tear or two, i wasn't feeling sad but kind of angry though that why did this have to happen. Awwwww no point dwelling over it anymore like what online penpal always been saying... It's over !!! Yeah !!! Although it was just a dream, somewhat it does bother me alittle bit though. I couldn't sleep and i knew i got to do something about it. It's 3am and i got to work in the morning... so i went online and read news surf facebook and played some games on facebook :)
Oh well it's friday, it's her dating day, i think she's looking forward to this day... for this day is quite crucial to her as she got to know him better... well i feel happy for her, and i refrained myself from chatting with her although i see her online... oh well i think that's the way man :)
No one to chat with, hahaa but myself... I know if i were to tell her about my dreams, i'll get a lecture then she will go on and say those things again which i don't like to hear... "Ya it's your life, no one bothers one one cares, it's your life, your choice why should anyone be bothered!" YHa some sort of this way... She's weird, instead of consoling people, she went on to scold you... hahaa that's how cute she is... but then it's something which with me for almost more than 2 years now... it's not something which you want to forget then you will forget, i did try and am still trying and i guess it's getting better now at least i'm more firm... although more firm doesn't really go well with you, yeah but i'm happy with it... Oh well i hope she will share her date today with me next week... keke... clubbers, hmmm i will give 1 out of 50 guys to be a good one though :x I hope that guy is this 1/50 kind of guy :)
Laalaaala, it's going to be weekends, i guess i want to buy some new clothes, but can't spend too much... I wish to buy something new, wear something new, instead of wearing the same old clothings which will remind me of her... Ya this is how bad it is, but school is going to reopen soon and i have to pay one chunk of huge money to the damn bloody suckers :x Oh well what to do...
This is life... I'm heading to IMM this saturday with YoYo, hoping to buy a pair of sneakers and maybe some shirts :D And maybe head down to jurong point ? It's been revamped so ya most probably more guys shops :D Nice Food :D
Friday, May 29, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
An Article from Business Time on Poverty
An article posted in the business times on today's date, 28th may has once again awakened me from the realization of what poverty and how cruelty the world is and how the riches are the ever heartless and fake people they really are behind those smirking smiles they put on their faces with the agog of tales of the poor...
The story which made me remember what i had in mind was this...
The story of someone by the name Jehangir, one of the 'thousands' of people they interviewed.
It illustrated how tragic collision of dogged effort against a world of banks and laws that seems to plot against the poor.
Although we know that the cycle of poverty is hard to break, countries might try to break via by educating the people and subsquently hoping that they will break the cycle of poverty. The fact is, because of the differences in the status of one, prevents the benefits of the one to borrow money to assess while the one's in need of immediate attention be it health or housing, cause the issues relating to poverty.
Like the article had mentioned, he is a chronically poor man in Uttar Pradesh, northern india.l He worked decades as a labourer on other people's land hoping that one day, he's able to have his own bicycle, land and house. One day, his parents died unexpectedly. By then, he managed to own his very own bicycle but was unable to financially afford a funeral for his parents, he borrowed money from moneylender because banks don't lend out money because of his social status. Moneylenders, the thought of high interests obviously come into the picture.
His wife started working to repay the moneylender as well, as did his two young songs. Pulling a child out of school may be a good way to quickly help repay a loan, but it's a dubious long-term investment decision in a country where education determines everything. What matter now is more important than the future, the thinking of being in a poverty cycle.
Then it came that he managed to save enough to build his very own house but one day the wall collapsed, injuring his limbs.... He had to borrow money from moneylenders once again for treatment as well as accomodation by building new room for his family... This is tragedy... As he recovers, he's being paid lower than he used be being paid due to his not fully abled body... So tell me how to break out of poverty? In singapore, i see children wasting food, complaining these, complaining that... I do want to help out in the social organizations... I really want to do a part to help these people... Why can't the rich help to stablize their lifestyle, build something, provide them a job at least having a job enables them to have the light to live on...
Awwwww i don't know what i'm talking about...
The story which made me remember what i had in mind was this...
The story of someone by the name Jehangir, one of the 'thousands' of people they interviewed.
It illustrated how tragic collision of dogged effort against a world of banks and laws that seems to plot against the poor.
Although we know that the cycle of poverty is hard to break, countries might try to break via by educating the people and subsquently hoping that they will break the cycle of poverty. The fact is, because of the differences in the status of one, prevents the benefits of the one to borrow money to assess while the one's in need of immediate attention be it health or housing, cause the issues relating to poverty.
Like the article had mentioned, he is a chronically poor man in Uttar Pradesh, northern india.l He worked decades as a labourer on other people's land hoping that one day, he's able to have his own bicycle, land and house. One day, his parents died unexpectedly. By then, he managed to own his very own bicycle but was unable to financially afford a funeral for his parents, he borrowed money from moneylender because banks don't lend out money because of his social status. Moneylenders, the thought of high interests obviously come into the picture.
His wife started working to repay the moneylender as well, as did his two young songs. Pulling a child out of school may be a good way to quickly help repay a loan, but it's a dubious long-term investment decision in a country where education determines everything. What matter now is more important than the future, the thinking of being in a poverty cycle.
Then it came that he managed to save enough to build his very own house but one day the wall collapsed, injuring his limbs.... He had to borrow money from moneylenders once again for treatment as well as accomodation by building new room for his family... This is tragedy... As he recovers, he's being paid lower than he used be being paid due to his not fully abled body... So tell me how to break out of poverty? In singapore, i see children wasting food, complaining these, complaining that... I do want to help out in the social organizations... I really want to do a part to help these people... Why can't the rich help to stablize their lifestyle, build something, provide them a job at least having a job enables them to have the light to live on...
Awwwww i don't know what i'm talking about...
Terrible feeling... Awwwwww
Been experiencing diarrhoea diarrhoea, nothing else but diarrhoea... What a terrible week... Tummy was pain that i couldn't sleep at night... I don't know what's happening and neither do i want to go see a doctor... The moment i reached home yesterday, i went straight to shower and had diarrhoea, was physically very very weak... i went to bed and sleep... It was then at around 10plus in the night, i felt the pain in my tummy... I wokeup, diarrhoea again... then i realized i didn't have my dinner but that's ok, i had no appetite though... Then i went online using my brother's laptop and watched tennis live French Garos matches :) Then i saw her online at this late hour.... It's kind of unlike her to be online this late, so i guess she's chatting with her new date, so i didn't really chat with her... Then again, minutes later, diarrhoea again... CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT !!! Diarrhoea Diarrhoea Diarrhoea... It's making my butt hot and painful and making me physically very very weak and tiring. Everytime i had diarrhoea, i quickly glup one cup of water to hydrate myself or else i'll die i guess... All the diarrhoea were fast and furious, all water and that's about it...
Then i was lying down on my sofa, chatting with merilyn and watching tennis the same time... Hahaa she didn't even know that the timetable is already out then she went on complaining the same things i complained to myself in the afternoon... Hahaa FOOKUP !!!
Morning came, although i finished watching the whole of the tennis matches, i didn't really stay up for the big match between barca and manU... Hahaa... The first thing i did when i wokeup, DIARRHOEA AGAIN !!!! Awwwww something is really really wrong... might be the lor mee i ate yesterday afternoon ? Or the claypot laksa i had the 2days ago ? I guess i'm skipping my lunch again later, most probably going to have something sweet and light. 2pieces of papaya and 2pieces of mangoes :) My favourite :D And most proabably abowl of the redbean soup with 2 riceballs, sesame and peanuts :D AWWWW delicious they are just so irresistable :x
Yup that's about it, she's going on her date tomorrow. I wish her luck from the bottom of my heart and i truely hope that someone good and nice can take care of her. That's about it. Exams results are coming really soon... i know i didn't really do well this time... i hope i am able to do it better this coming semester :) Yup that's about it. Well i guess i'm not going to talk to her anymore... The more i talk to her, the harder for me to get away :)
I had a resolution this morning... I subscribed myself to the googlereader.... It's a fun and easy kind of tool which one can use to read lots of things/information on the web... Cool i love it and i have decided to read and know more about the world and what's happening. I hate reading SG Newspaper... Always painting the beautiful pictures and hiding all other issues... It's so "controlled" in a way that it's not interesting to me... heehee :)
I'm going to IMM this saturday with YoYo... I hope that by going out, i'm able to break free from what i was in the past :) Awwwww YoYo is a nice guy, he has some weird habits and interests... Haha that's him.
Then i was lying down on my sofa, chatting with merilyn and watching tennis the same time... Hahaa she didn't even know that the timetable is already out then she went on complaining the same things i complained to myself in the afternoon... Hahaa FOOKUP !!!
Morning came, although i finished watching the whole of the tennis matches, i didn't really stay up for the big match between barca and manU... Hahaa... The first thing i did when i wokeup, DIARRHOEA AGAIN !!!! Awwwww something is really really wrong... might be the lor mee i ate yesterday afternoon ? Or the claypot laksa i had the 2days ago ? I guess i'm skipping my lunch again later, most probably going to have something sweet and light. 2pieces of papaya and 2pieces of mangoes :) My favourite :D And most proabably abowl of the redbean soup with 2 riceballs, sesame and peanuts :D AWWWW delicious they are just so irresistable :x
Yup that's about it, she's going on her date tomorrow. I wish her luck from the bottom of my heart and i truely hope that someone good and nice can take care of her. That's about it. Exams results are coming really soon... i know i didn't really do well this time... i hope i am able to do it better this coming semester :) Yup that's about it. Well i guess i'm not going to talk to her anymore... The more i talk to her, the harder for me to get away :)
I had a resolution this morning... I subscribed myself to the googlereader.... It's a fun and easy kind of tool which one can use to read lots of things/information on the web... Cool i love it and i have decided to read and know more about the world and what's happening. I hate reading SG Newspaper... Always painting the beautiful pictures and hiding all other issues... It's so "controlled" in a way that it's not interesting to me... heehee :)
I'm going to IMM this saturday with YoYo... I hope that by going out, i'm able to break free from what i was in the past :) Awwwww YoYo is a nice guy, he has some weird habits and interests... Haha that's him.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Tummy Day~~~~
Awwwww upset tummy is a terrible thing to experience for anyone... It's kind of on/off sensation pain in your tummy and when you go to the toilet, you wish that the pain will just come out, it won't!!! Nothing comes out... and the pain is there!!! That's when i realized that sitting on the toilet bowel won't help, i went to lie down on my bed and apply the chinese medicated oil on my belly button :) It helps alot :D Awwwww what a nice feeling and smell :x
Kind of weird, yesterday around evening time, my brother asked me if i needed money for my education. I was like wow so are you subsidizing my school fees har ? So nice of you ? Hahaa. Then he told me he wanted to buy a car. Oh well he passed his driving test few days ago... As for me, i had mine for about almost 2 and a half years. Although i have the thought of buying a car as well but due to furthering my studies and climbing up the higher ladder, i choose to study to a car...
Yesterday was kind of happy and sad for me... I don't know why... Kind of happy that i know her even better and kind of sad that this is the very far we can be with each other... As in, i know my limits... i know myself very well from my past relationships... I know i'm not ready at all... She was telling me about her past, her uni days in aus, her days she got lost HAHAHA i seriously cannot believe that girls cannot read maps !!! HAHAHA this is so funny :x oppsss Then she went on telling me that she went clubbing... oh well clubbing... a place i don't really like to visit though :x then she told me she had fun she was drinking and got drunk. Hahaa ok girls should know how to take care of themselves and be wary when they are drunk... I came across lots of reports :x Ok then she told me she gave her no. to someone she thought was a better one among many others. I was like "WOW" ok... that's when i feel kind of sad and happy. She's nice oh well ya that's about it though :)
Then i was asking so many questions about her and her new date... She sounds happy too... I should be happy for her as well hahaha. It's so unlike me to ask so many questions... Oh well i hope the very best for her :)
Time is not right yet. I'm a very patient man :) I can wait and i'm more focused than ever. I know i need to climb on and move on. I know i need a life, to know someone and love someone someday :) But the time isn't now. Oh well what can i say ? :)
She pulled me back from the darkness into dim light and from the dim light i walked towards the brighter light. She has become someone special to me. Special in a way that i am able to share everything and anything about whatsoever. Maybe because we don't see each other or even talk to one another. This is the kind of special weird relationship i like :x I'm weird hahaa but if you know me in person, you will know i'm a man of few words. I don't really talk much.
:) That's about it... today i saw one of my secondary school friend and she's working in one of the big advertising coys... it has been a very long time since i last seen her. Hahaa i guess she was shocked in the way i dressed myself today... Awwwww everytime i see them, they always comment on my hair without fail. Hahaa. It's time for me to trim my hair :) After my reservice, i guess i'm going to have some nice color on them as well :)
That's all for today :) I hope i can and able to continue my daily diary as mentioned by sandy. Hahaa i'm was stunned when she told me that she had a written diary !!! Kaoz hahaa ok :)
Kind of weird, yesterday around evening time, my brother asked me if i needed money for my education. I was like wow so are you subsidizing my school fees har ? So nice of you ? Hahaa. Then he told me he wanted to buy a car. Oh well he passed his driving test few days ago... As for me, i had mine for about almost 2 and a half years. Although i have the thought of buying a car as well but due to furthering my studies and climbing up the higher ladder, i choose to study to a car...
Yesterday was kind of happy and sad for me... I don't know why... Kind of happy that i know her even better and kind of sad that this is the very far we can be with each other... As in, i know my limits... i know myself very well from my past relationships... I know i'm not ready at all... She was telling me about her past, her uni days in aus, her days she got lost HAHAHA i seriously cannot believe that girls cannot read maps !!! HAHAHA this is so funny :x oppsss Then she went on telling me that she went clubbing... oh well clubbing... a place i don't really like to visit though :x then she told me she had fun she was drinking and got drunk. Hahaa ok girls should know how to take care of themselves and be wary when they are drunk... I came across lots of reports :x Ok then she told me she gave her no. to someone she thought was a better one among many others. I was like "WOW" ok... that's when i feel kind of sad and happy. She's nice oh well ya that's about it though :)
Then i was asking so many questions about her and her new date... She sounds happy too... I should be happy for her as well hahaha. It's so unlike me to ask so many questions... Oh well i hope the very best for her :)
Time is not right yet. I'm a very patient man :) I can wait and i'm more focused than ever. I know i need to climb on and move on. I know i need a life, to know someone and love someone someday :) But the time isn't now. Oh well what can i say ? :)
She pulled me back from the darkness into dim light and from the dim light i walked towards the brighter light. She has become someone special to me. Special in a way that i am able to share everything and anything about whatsoever. Maybe because we don't see each other or even talk to one another. This is the kind of special weird relationship i like :x I'm weird hahaa but if you know me in person, you will know i'm a man of few words. I don't really talk much.
:) That's about it... today i saw one of my secondary school friend and she's working in one of the big advertising coys... it has been a very long time since i last seen her. Hahaa i guess she was shocked in the way i dressed myself today... Awwwww everytime i see them, they always comment on my hair without fail. Hahaa. It's time for me to trim my hair :) After my reservice, i guess i'm going to have some nice color on them as well :)
That's all for today :) I hope i can and able to continue my daily diary as mentioned by sandy. Hahaa i'm was stunned when she told me that she had a written diary !!! Kaoz hahaa ok :)
Monday, May 25, 2009
Rejection but feeling happy :)
What a monday blue to start off with... I felt uncomfortable this morning due to the fact that i didn't really sleep well the previous night... Reason being, i saw someone while i was shopping with YoYo after so many months... Don't know whether it was kind of lucky or unlucky that i saw her... I still can picture the shocked on her face, her expression...
I told everything to her via msn... She got angry and scolded me terribly... Well i guess i really deserved it... And really thank her once again... She got so worked up that i can sensed that she's really upset and angry over my stupidity... I don't know... I'm kind of sad when she's like that... She had gone through worst than anyone else so i hope she will be more happier and this is from the bottom of my heart... I want her to be happy always :)
Then while i was having lunch, i kept thinking, it's always me telling her about my problems and i seriously know nuts about her except what she had gone through and that's about it... All along i wanted to ask her out to thank her and today, i asked her if she wanted some rice dumplings because my house made some. She rejected the idea. Hahaa. I like her... Then i went on and ask her if i were to ask her out, will she say yes, she rejected although she didn't really say a no... awwwww hahaa but i'm feeling much better after letting her know that i want to ask her out... That's about it :) and i'm feeling much better now because of her :)
Today i found out something about her, her religion, her daily lifestyle and what kind of girl she is :) That's good enough :)
Everyday it seems that i have this urge to see her online in either msn or fb... I don't know why, but i feel happy just by seeing her online :)
Although she doesn't really say bye when she's off her work, today i did the initiative by saying Bye to her first but her reply was, since you said bye oh well i should say bye.... Awwwww hinting me that i wanted her offline !!! Hahaa she's this cute isn't she haha :)
I told everything to her via msn... She got angry and scolded me terribly... Well i guess i really deserved it... And really thank her once again... She got so worked up that i can sensed that she's really upset and angry over my stupidity... I don't know... I'm kind of sad when she's like that... She had gone through worst than anyone else so i hope she will be more happier and this is from the bottom of my heart... I want her to be happy always :)
Then while i was having lunch, i kept thinking, it's always me telling her about my problems and i seriously know nuts about her except what she had gone through and that's about it... All along i wanted to ask her out to thank her and today, i asked her if she wanted some rice dumplings because my house made some. She rejected the idea. Hahaa. I like her... Then i went on and ask her if i were to ask her out, will she say yes, she rejected although she didn't really say a no... awwwww hahaa but i'm feeling much better after letting her know that i want to ask her out... That's about it :) and i'm feeling much better now because of her :)
Today i found out something about her, her religion, her daily lifestyle and what kind of girl she is :) That's good enough :)
Everyday it seems that i have this urge to see her online in either msn or fb... I don't know why, but i feel happy just by seeing her online :)
Although she doesn't really say bye when she's off her work, today i did the initiative by saying Bye to her first but her reply was, since you said bye oh well i should say bye.... Awwwww hinting me that i wanted her offline !!! Hahaa she's this cute isn't she haha :)
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Weird me...
I have come to realize that i'm becoming weird lately... I find myself feeling uneasy and uncomfortable whenever i don't see her online... Awwwwwww... I don't know why... All i know is i'm happy when i'm able to chat with her even to the extend of just saying hi how are you :) kind of stuff... Maybe it's because i'm lack of focus on my job :x It's been in my head lately. I want to ask her out. I want to ask her if she's free to catch the movie Angels & Demons with me. I know there is no point in asking my friends because they all have gone to watch the show without me :( hahaa but i'm afraid. I don't know why. Maybe it's because i'm afraid of losing the future chances of even talking to her>? I'm this kind of person, i'll think far ahead of things. Many possibilities and weighing the outcomes before deciding on going ahead of not and i guess i'll give this a miss... guess i got to watch it alone :\
She seems busy today, i guess... I'll busy too in the days to come:) but i'll always find time to chat with you :) Heehee i don't know why... i like the way it is now :) I'm happy and i realized after so long that i've been missing so much things... All thanks to her :)
My hair is getting longer and i think it's time to go trim it short... heehee although short hair doesn't suit me well but what to do, reservice is coming !!! Awwwwww.... hahaa :)
Something which i found on the web which is nice to read :)
Love does not need a reason.
Lady: Why do you like me..? Why do you love me?
Man: I can't tell the reason.. but I really like you..
Lady: You can't even tell me the reason... how can you say you like me? How can you say you love me?
Man: I really don't know the reason, but I can prove that I love you.
Lady: Proof? No! I want you to tell me the reason. My friend's boyfriend can tell her why he loves her but not you!
Man: Ok..ok!!! Erm... because you are beautiful, because your voice is sweet, because you are caring, because you are loving,
because you are thoughtful, because of your smile, because of your every movements..
Unfortunately, a few days later, the Lady met with an accident and was in a coma. The Man then placed a letter by her side,
and here is the content:
"Dearest,
Because of your sweet voice that I love you...
Now can you talk? No! Therefore I cannot love you.
Because of your care and concern that I like you..
Now that you cannot show them, therefore I cannot love you.
Because of your smile,
because of your every movements that I love you..
Now can you smile? Now can you move?
No, therefore I cannot love you...
If love needs a reason, like now, there is no reason for me to love you anymore.
Do love need a reason? NO!
Therefore, I still love you... and love doesn't need a reason.
A sick Day
It's been long since i've come back here to write something :)
Today i ain't feeling so good and took the opportunity to rest and sleep in office x_X'' Heehee
I really wanted to say thank you to someone special. She's sweet looking, nice, kind and charming and also knows how to really take good care of herself. She's also someone who reprimanded me on something which i've kept deep inside of me and also which i refused to let go. Her words and what she had gone through made me thought otherwise and gave me the strength and courage to spill it all out to her and she's truely the only person who knows what i had been keeping inside of me. Although it's kind of weird that i have never seen her in real person and we are just strangers and slowly she became a friend of mine in one way or another; not sure whether does she treat me as one though haha, nevertheless she became someone truely close to me; someone special. If i have one thing to say, give me 2 years time :)
I was feeling down all the time but that's going to change.
Furthermore, i came across one interesting article on symphony 92.4FM's website about "Growing Older or Growing Up".
And i really want to share with all people who happen to come to my blog and reading stuff :)
Here it goes;
The first day of school our professor introduced himself and challenged us to get to know someone we didn't already know. I stood up to look around when a gentle hand touched my shoulder. I turned around to find a wrinkled, little old lady beaming up at me with a smile that lit up her entire being. She said, "Hi handsome. My name is Rose. I'm eighty seven years old. Can I give you a hug?". I laughed and enthusiastically resounded, "Of course you may! " and she gave me a giant squeeze.
I then asked, "Why are you in college at such a young, innocent age?" She jokingly replied, "I'm here to meet a rich husband, get married, have a couple of children, and then retire and travel." "No seriously," I asked. I was curious what may have motivated her to be taking on this challenge at her age. "I always dreamed of having a college education and now I'm getting one!" she told me.After class we walked to the student union building and shared a chocolate milkshake. We became instant friends. Every day for the next three months we would leave class together and talk nonstop. I was always mesmerized listening to this "time machine" as she shared her wisdom and experience with me.Over the course of the year, Rose became a campus icon and easily made friends wherever she went. She loved to dress up and she reveled in the attention bestowed upon her from the other students. She was living it up.At the end of the semester we invited Rose to speak at our football banquet and I'll never forget what she taught us. She was introduced and stepped up to the podium. As she began to deliver her prepared speech, she dropped her three by five cards on the floor. Frustrated and a little embarrassed she leaned into the microphone and simply said "I'm sorry I'm so jittery. I gave up beer for Lent and this whiskey is killing me! I'll never get my speech back in order so let me just tell you what I know."As we laughed she cleared her throat and began: "We do not stop playing because we are old; we grow old because we stop playing. There are only four secrets to staying young, being happy, and achieving success.""You have to laugh and find humor every day."
"You've got to have a dream. When you lose your dreams, you die. We have so many people walking around who are dead and don't even know it!""There is a huge difference between growing older and growing up. If you are nineteen years old and lie in bed for one full year and don't do one productive thing, you will turn twenty years old. If I am eighty seven years old and stay in bed for a year and never do anything I will turn eighty eight. Anybody can grow older. That doesn't take any talent or ability. The idea is to grow up by always finding the opportunity in change." "Have no regrets. The elderly usually don't have regrets for what we did, but rather for things we did not do. The only people who fear death are those with regrets."
At the year's end Rose finished the college degree she had begun all those years ago. One week after graduation Rose died peacefully in her sleep. Over two thousand college students attended her funeral in tribute to the wonderful woman who taught by example that it's never too late to be all you can possibly be.
:)
She seems kind of sad and frustrated. I wish i could do something to brighten her up. I know i can't do anything because she simply feels very irritated. I love talking to her over online messaging...
Today i ain't feeling so good and took the opportunity to rest and sleep in office x_X'' Heehee
I really wanted to say thank you to someone special. She's sweet looking, nice, kind and charming and also knows how to really take good care of herself. She's also someone who reprimanded me on something which i've kept deep inside of me and also which i refused to let go. Her words and what she had gone through made me thought otherwise and gave me the strength and courage to spill it all out to her and she's truely the only person who knows what i had been keeping inside of me. Although it's kind of weird that i have never seen her in real person and we are just strangers and slowly she became a friend of mine in one way or another; not sure whether does she treat me as one though haha, nevertheless she became someone truely close to me; someone special. If i have one thing to say, give me 2 years time :)
I was feeling down all the time but that's going to change.
Furthermore, i came across one interesting article on symphony 92.4FM's website about "Growing Older or Growing Up".
And i really want to share with all people who happen to come to my blog and reading stuff :)
Here it goes;
The first day of school our professor introduced himself and challenged us to get to know someone we didn't already know. I stood up to look around when a gentle hand touched my shoulder. I turned around to find a wrinkled, little old lady beaming up at me with a smile that lit up her entire being. She said, "Hi handsome. My name is Rose. I'm eighty seven years old. Can I give you a hug?". I laughed and enthusiastically resounded, "Of course you may! " and she gave me a giant squeeze.
I then asked, "Why are you in college at such a young, innocent age?" She jokingly replied, "I'm here to meet a rich husband, get married, have a couple of children, and then retire and travel." "No seriously," I asked. I was curious what may have motivated her to be taking on this challenge at her age. "I always dreamed of having a college education and now I'm getting one!" she told me.After class we walked to the student union building and shared a chocolate milkshake. We became instant friends. Every day for the next three months we would leave class together and talk nonstop. I was always mesmerized listening to this "time machine" as she shared her wisdom and experience with me.Over the course of the year, Rose became a campus icon and easily made friends wherever she went. She loved to dress up and she reveled in the attention bestowed upon her from the other students. She was living it up.At the end of the semester we invited Rose to speak at our football banquet and I'll never forget what she taught us. She was introduced and stepped up to the podium. As she began to deliver her prepared speech, she dropped her three by five cards on the floor. Frustrated and a little embarrassed she leaned into the microphone and simply said "I'm sorry I'm so jittery. I gave up beer for Lent and this whiskey is killing me! I'll never get my speech back in order so let me just tell you what I know."As we laughed she cleared her throat and began: "We do not stop playing because we are old; we grow old because we stop playing. There are only four secrets to staying young, being happy, and achieving success.""You have to laugh and find humor every day."
"You've got to have a dream. When you lose your dreams, you die. We have so many people walking around who are dead and don't even know it!""There is a huge difference between growing older and growing up. If you are nineteen years old and lie in bed for one full year and don't do one productive thing, you will turn twenty years old. If I am eighty seven years old and stay in bed for a year and never do anything I will turn eighty eight. Anybody can grow older. That doesn't take any talent or ability. The idea is to grow up by always finding the opportunity in change." "Have no regrets. The elderly usually don't have regrets for what we did, but rather for things we did not do. The only people who fear death are those with regrets."
At the year's end Rose finished the college degree she had begun all those years ago. One week after graduation Rose died peacefully in her sleep. Over two thousand college students attended her funeral in tribute to the wonderful woman who taught by example that it's never too late to be all you can possibly be.
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She seems kind of sad and frustrated. I wish i could do something to brighten her up. I know i can't do anything because she simply feels very irritated. I love talking to her over online messaging...
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