Have not been feeling well this week... so actually went to bed around 8~9pm instead of usual 2~3am... Last night was terrible... I wokeup in the middle of the night, 3am because of one dream... Can you imagine someone shedding tears while dreaming... hahaha... It's the second time i dreamt of her again... It's the same things she said to me... It felt so real, really and i'm not kidding... Although i knew it was a dream, i still persisted on what was going to happen... I don't know, when you loved someone, you want to spend every moment to look after her... I wanted to know what happen... The reasons were still the same, she cried, i cried, it's always repeating itself... I wokeup, the feeling i had wasn't kind of sad, yeah i shed a tear or two, i wasn't feeling sad but kind of angry though that why did this have to happen. Awwwww no point dwelling over it anymore like what online penpal always been saying... It's over !!! Yeah !!! Although it was just a dream, somewhat it does bother me alittle bit though. I couldn't sleep and i knew i got to do something about it. It's 3am and i got to work in the morning... so i went online and read news surf facebook and played some games on facebook :)
Oh well it's friday, it's her dating day, i think she's looking forward to this day... for this day is quite crucial to her as she got to know him better... well i feel happy for her, and i refrained myself from chatting with her although i see her online... oh well i think that's the way man :)
No one to chat with, hahaa but myself... I know if i were to tell her about my dreams, i'll get a lecture then she will go on and say those things again which i don't like to hear... "Ya it's your life, no one bothers one one cares, it's your life, your choice why should anyone be bothered!" YHa some sort of this way... She's weird, instead of consoling people, she went on to scold you... hahaa that's how cute she is... but then it's something which with me for almost more than 2 years now... it's not something which you want to forget then you will forget, i did try and am still trying and i guess it's getting better now at least i'm more firm... although more firm doesn't really go well with you, yeah but i'm happy with it... Oh well i hope she will share her date today with me next week... keke... clubbers, hmmm i will give 1 out of 50 guys to be a good one though :x I hope that guy is this 1/50 kind of guy :)
Laalaaala, it's going to be weekends, i guess i want to buy some new clothes, but can't spend too much... I wish to buy something new, wear something new, instead of wearing the same old clothings which will remind me of her... Ya this is how bad it is, but school is going to reopen soon and i have to pay one chunk of huge money to the damn bloody suckers :x Oh well what to do...
This is life... I'm heading to IMM this saturday with YoYo, hoping to buy a pair of sneakers and maybe some shirts :D And maybe head down to jurong point ? It's been revamped so ya most probably more guys shops :D Nice Food :D
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