Contradiction...

Dear Me,

I know you've been busy this week but shouldn't it be the time to move forth and onwards ?
There are many great things ahead for you to venture into and be more open up.
Yes you have been very inflexible all these while and i know you have your reasons BUT
shouldn't it be the time to let-go of everything and start thinking ahead instead of clinging onto the past and many-a-times, stagnant or worse, moved backwards.

You know you aren't young anymore. You know you need to do something about it.
There will definitely be a time when no one is around for you, no one to guide you and even no one to feed you except you yourself to be there for you. It's exactly what the old man said when you were still a rookie "The world is like a jungle, it has never changed; be it the beginning of human civilisation or the day since man was created. Human instinct tells you that you need to kill/hunt/eat/breathe to survive - it's a harsh reality, a very difficult environment world out there and it's either you eat or be eaten. Now the bad thing is, you a man, being strong in nature has to the lead. No matter what, you got to rely on yourself and not others too much..."
It's embedded into the back of my head ever since we had that lunch at the already torn-down temporary chinatown market food centre.

Somehow what he said differs from my thoughts. All along, family values come first and it has always been family that comes into the picture before others. It seems to me that you are just a pussy.

I know you seriously hate this life but what to do, like what the old man always say "What to do, you just got to do it."

With Love,
Me



Recently i have free time, it's always the same, work home games work home game... the same routine over and over repeating itself everyday...
I've been wondering what about the others, are they going through the same routine as mine ?
It's really kind of sad in life; why God created man...

Dear Me (Day 1)

I was at work when i saw this week's 8days magazine.
It was the usual morning the foul and irritating mood self of me dragging myself off the comfy and heartwarming bed of mine to work.
You don't wish to see my face in the morning, it's totally "Don't you dare talk or even look at me" kind of attitude grouchy and unfriendly manner.

There, as usual sitting at my place, presented infront of me, 8days magazine with the gorgeous Michelle Chia as front cover.

Took it out from the nicely wrapped plastic and started reading it, ignoring the old man's saying "Urgent, this is urgent...."

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Yes it's always urgent and never ending things to do...
Something is really bothering me lately after knowing how lowly i was paid...
I seriously have to drag myself to work everyday !!!

Oh well not to talk about work... then i started flipping through the pages in the magazine and obviously i'm more interested in pictures than length and length of words and of course Michelle Chia's story of the week :D and was reading about the other michelle, Michelle Chong...

Both Michelle (s) are really remarkable women.

As i was reading, oh well i'm contradicting myself again but it's alright, i do that all the time, yes i was reading and there's this one small article which grabbed my attention. First Person by Jason Hahn.

Yes kind of weird name Hahn... it talks about a book "Letter to My 16-Year-Old Self"

Oh well it's on interesting book after reading the reviews off the internet...

And Dear Me, i shall replicate this story of my own...



Dear Me,

I know you hate the world you are in after reading so many successful stories off the internet and the magazines, but do remember, you are happy with who you are and that's the most important reason you need to know and remember it well.

You must be advantageous enough, dare to take risks and stop being a pussy.
You won't be able achieve anything and yes i do mean what i said !!!

Why are there people who aren't as good as you but are more successful than you?
You know what i mean and you know what i'm saying.

Why is it that there are people who are able to afford and able to give more to their mum and not me? It's because you are being a pussy all along !!!

FOOK YOU!

Love,
Me