Contradiction...

Dear Me,

I know you've been busy this week but shouldn't it be the time to move forth and onwards ?
There are many great things ahead for you to venture into and be more open up.
Yes you have been very inflexible all these while and i know you have your reasons BUT
shouldn't it be the time to let-go of everything and start thinking ahead instead of clinging onto the past and many-a-times, stagnant or worse, moved backwards.

You know you aren't young anymore. You know you need to do something about it.
There will definitely be a time when no one is around for you, no one to guide you and even no one to feed you except you yourself to be there for you. It's exactly what the old man said when you were still a rookie "The world is like a jungle, it has never changed; be it the beginning of human civilisation or the day since man was created. Human instinct tells you that you need to kill/hunt/eat/breathe to survive - it's a harsh reality, a very difficult environment world out there and it's either you eat or be eaten. Now the bad thing is, you a man, being strong in nature has to the lead. No matter what, you got to rely on yourself and not others too much..."
It's embedded into the back of my head ever since we had that lunch at the already torn-down temporary chinatown market food centre.

Somehow what he said differs from my thoughts. All along, family values come first and it has always been family that comes into the picture before others. It seems to me that you are just a pussy.

I know you seriously hate this life but what to do, like what the old man always say "What to do, you just got to do it."

With Love,
Me



Recently i have free time, it's always the same, work home games work home game... the same routine over and over repeating itself everyday...
I've been wondering what about the others, are they going through the same routine as mine ?
It's really kind of sad in life; why God created man...