Saturday!! Book out!! Book out!!

Wow book out book out!!!
What an unlucky day this very saturday was... Just when we were going to book out, it started raining heavily in the morning... SerioUSLY!!! just when we were about to leave the drill shed... Unlucky or lucky? ? ? haha... sianz lah have to go through the stupid training of different things again... What's worst was, got to go back office... haiz... Guess got to find another job...

Maybe it's fate, i just realized that there are so many people actually earning slightly higher than me... Good news is, they are smokers but i'm not so i guess i could and can actually save more money ba... Haiz... Maybe i seriously have lost the interest in my life... because of that someone... Seriously am been crushed down deep deep... lost all interest in the things which i used to like... Talked to some people during the week... Many may be very simple minded, but the differences between them and me was this, they know what they want to achieve... they know what they want... Some wanted to quit to come out venture with their the other half... some wanted to come out venture on their own... It's this enthusiatism in them which seriously makes me envy them...

Then i slowly told them about all the issues and problems which they may face and i did encourage them to go ahead for they have such enthusiatism in them... Told them about the experiences i had while i was still studying and working in cafe... i shared about the time when i helped out my this cafe boss friend and the difficulties we went through...

After the discussion and sharing, i suddenly felt jealous of them... i don't really know why... maybe my "heart" has seriously stopped... and maybe i just seriously don't really care...

Nvm everything is on the rise... nothing much the poor seriously can do... i told them about the money issue in business... i just wish them luck...

Next week will be seriously very tiring... all the physical stuff... Haiz got worried, not sure whether can pass my ippt... Pull up seriously cannot pull already... getting weak and weaker... arms no longer as strong as before... just not as high and far as before... run not as swift as before... adulthood is catching me up and i seriously am not in the state of mind to go through this stage of life...

Haiz...

一直不相信有天长地久这东西。
自己也没有把握能给你金钱能给的。
也许过了几年后，希望是能把所有的一切当成是一场梦。

That's all folks...